My Mama Visited Me Today
Posted: Thursday, July 01, 2010
by Roschelle Nelson
As long as I live, I will consider myself fortunate for so many different things. I've been blessed with two beautiful sons, a loving family, a rewarding professional career, good friends and good health. These are factors I can measure without the help of any outside influence. Other blessings aren't realized until you've compared your life with others.
These two matriarchs of the family would have been enough but God was kind enough to grant me a third blessing, a great grandmother. She was 70 years old when I was born and remained a steadfast part of my life for the next 27 years and for me, that was priceless.
Family members affectionately called her "Mama" because...well she actually was everyone's "mama" - a tall strong slender woman with beautiful chestnut brown skin and coal black hair. Her eyes were dark brown with a hint of blue outlining them. She was a beautiful woman. When she died in 1997 she had only been hospitalized once in her life. At the age of 97, Mama drifted off to sleep peacefully.
There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of her.
For a while after her death, I would constantly dream of her. She and I would be in the most beautiful places - large palatial style rooms with white sheer curtains gently dancing from the cool wind blowing. The rays of the sun warming our faces as we talked, laughed, danced and got reacquainted.
After several months of these wonderful unconscious experiences, the dreams stopped. Sometimes I would purposefully attempt to will myself to dream about her...but with no success - until last night.
It was one of those dreams that you don't realize was a dream at all until you wake. The scenery was different this time. Mama was sitting on my bed with my head cradled in her lap. This was so comfortable and familiar I wouldn't have given it a second thought except for what I remember her telling me.
She was stroking the side of my face and softly whispering that everything was going to be alright. She told me that she would always be here for me and not to worry. As soothing as her words and the sound of her voice were, I am worried. Could this be a warning to me from Mama?
I thought about the dream for a while and decided to clear my head by doing a little blog reading. The first blog I visited Incurable Insomniac had a quote posted that read:
See the state of your current life and say: Enough! You are taking the brush to paint something new over that old canvas - Vitor
Thanks for the pep talk Mama! I love you...
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Top-level comments on this article: (3 total)How extraordinary, to come from a family with three generations of wonderful women. Well, four, including you!My instinctive reaction when I read about your dream was that you'd been worrying without realizing how much it was affecting you, and Mama came to you to say it's going to be okay.Please log in to respond to this comment.It was extraordinary. I knew it and boasted about it often. My great-grandmother this and my great-grandmother that. I know that I've been blessed beyond measure to have known this woman for so many years. She was my shining star, my respite in times of turmoil. If I had one thousand tongues, I couldn't thank God enough for bringing me into her life and Him bringing her into mine.Please log in to respond to this comment.
Not only was that comforting, but heartfelt as well. The part which you spoke about the dreams almost made me feel like I was there.Please log in to respond to this comment.Thanks for commenting Katricia. I've never experienced dreams like that before or since. They were so real. You could actually feel the peace and calm. The air was light and crisp like a cool spring afternoon. It was a beautiful place. I pray that she's there waiting for me to join her some day :)Please log in to respond to this comment.
Thank you for sharing your touching story. How lucky you were to have three generations of women to raise you. It is a wonderful comfort to have them still with you - if only in your dreams.Please log in to respond to this comment.Extremely lucky and forever thankful. Thanks for commentingPlease log in to respond to this comment.
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